Palhaço assassino

You're drowning 
in to this terrible world

of sadness and loneliness

nothing is enough for you
You should drown in to the sea

feel the water washing away your soul.

I simply cry during the fight

I try to shut up my mouth

with both hands...

I try so hard to be happy

I scream in my head

Shut up! Be happy!!

Stop whining please...

I'm walking numb 

feeling like nothing is real

My hands on a knife

cutting so deep,

The dust of the pills

calm me down during this nightmare

but nothing is enough.

Water so warm 

dripping in to my skinny body,

the blood is wash away

I'm saying nothing

But I feel what I feel...