By Barbz Sousa

The verdict that I became  is fading into darkness. Nothing feels the same  We have to walk along into the fug. Everything is becoming the lie I was so afraid of this day How cold is your heart? Can't you see,  Can't you feel my neck in your hands my heart beats fiercely I want to live! I think of love I let it died It just never last You used to be my soul You used to be like me, so alive, so full of happiness. Visions of you Visions of me Everything is dead!

I'm trying to be  anything you asked for and more, For a minute I thought I could make you happier I won't let you go faster and faster  I run, I run for you for you I run everyday Lie down lay your head on my chest let me hold you tight the future seems so distant but you can feel with your fingertips my heart is beating faster no I wouldn't let you down. I promise you that.  Are we floating in the air? I told you a thousand times I love you just a little too much The smoke of your cigarette On naked shoulders your beautiful skin  my red lips tell you it's over No flowers, no unicorns, no blue sky It was supposed to be an endless dream but I have to go now In a little while I'll be gone

Tentar, tentar, tentar voltar a tentar tentar saber algo de mim de quem eu sou de quem eu fui de quem eu esqueci. O mundo esconde tantas verdades ou mostra apenas mentiras? Quero fechar os olhos ao quer que seja apagar cada pestanejar, cada cicatriz do passado, desaparecer. As rugas da minha memória matam-me e eu deixo-me morrer nos teus braços, meu amor, e somos o vento, somos livres com o peso do universo nos ombros caminhamos na incerteza de cada dia...

Tenho imensa pena, pensei que entenderias cada gesto, cada palavra todos os momentos que pensei serem suficientes apenas poeira do tempo Lê isto delicadamente: eu amo-te. não deveria ser suficiente!? Eu sei que buscas a perfeição que pretendes voar mais alto temo não poder acompanhar-te eu apenas existo e na minha insignificância permaneço corpo cadavérico na escuridão de cada dia, morri! Pensei que soubesses  não posso ser diferente de mim sou eu, apenas eu esta alma em pena este coração estremecido. Sou eu,  serei eu quando me abraças e me entristece o olhar!?

Cerro os portões com pavor da bruma Quero morder os lábios sangrentos da guilhotina. Respiro. Nem os cortes, nem a morfina só de mim  ando perdida. Olho. Não posso assumir o que vejo Todos possuem a vaidade supérflua da vida. Mas a minha alma pára e sente o cadáver dessa gente de carne estilizada. Mas nada me espanta já, nada me afeiçoa Nem a tristeza dos meus olhos Vivo em azul fúnebre e morro diluída em dor.     

I simply cry during the fight I try to shut up my mouth with both hands... I try so hard to be happy I scream in my head Shut up! Be happy!! Stop whining please... I'm walking numb  feeling like  nothing is real My hands on a knife cutting so deep, The dust of the pills calm me down during this  nightmare but nothing is enough. Water so warm  dripping  in to my skinny body, the blood is wash away... I'm saying nothing But I fee l what I  fee l...

You're drowning  in to this terrib le wor ld of sadness and loneliness nothing is enough for you You should drown in to the sea feel the water washing away your soul. I simply cry during the fight I try to shut up my mouth with both hands... I try so hard to be happy I scream in my head Shut up! Be happy!! Stop whining please... I'm walking numb  feeling like  nothing is real My hands on a knife cutting so deep, The dust of the pills calm me down during this  nightmare but nothing is enough. Water so warm  dripping  in to my skinny body, the blood is wash away I'm saying nothing But I fee l what I  fee l...

Don't cry sweet child, just jump. Blind eyes can't blaze in the wind you crunch, but you just want to fly in the darkness of the skies. Honey, I know they give you pills, while you're drinking your coke and jack. They promised you they wouldn't  leave you. but now they're gone. You're losing the smile that you've been faking But now you see The love is lost, baby, you're blind. Take a chance,you're drifting in the air,  Why are you crying? How scary is to be alive? Sad, sad, tears are falling... and how selfish the world can be!? Innocent heart you're not worth a thing Please make it stop for a while, this fight between you and me. Finally you can feel, just feel the knife cutting so deep! No one can't hurt you anymore.